Dont wanna do this anymore...

Time is ticking.
Please, bloom soon.

Having second thoughts... should I?
Or should I not?
hm

The final act is coming. sooner than you think.

Act IX

Throwing his sword aside,
he reaches out his hand.
A bond once broken,
Is formed yet again.

The gift still stays there,
Waiting to be found.

Act VIII

Tearing down each obstacle,
Their fates have finally met once again.

The warrior corners the hero,
but hesitates to give the final blow.

A mediating force,
Is just around the corner.

Maybe, its just because its all a game to me.
I hope not.

This awkward silence is enough to keep me together...

SHOWERRRR!!!!! haha

kk sry for all these short nonsensical posts
haha

but i jus cant find time
to blog properly

or rather, I have nth to blog abt.

or at least nth i wanna share now :)

My heart's in a mess.
Its happening all over again...
Just like... 2 years ago.

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is

Just seeing you,
Is enough to make me smile.

I gave you an inch. no, a mile.
And you didnt take it.

Now you're blaming me.
But I still treat you like 3 months ago.

As foolish as it seems,
Another chance has he obtained.

Torn into... three

Eyes on you.

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me

Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanna be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper

How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

lalalalalalalalalalallalalalalalalalala. I'm damn bored. I should go to sleep now :)

Act VII

The hero striketh back,
Scarring the one he once held dear.
Wounded, the wanderer retreateth.

Bonds.
Are they even worth the sacrifice?

Nursing his wounds,
The wanderer standeth up.

Nothing shall forestall his return.

Sword in hand,
Shield by side.
The wanderer is no longer,
A warrior has he become.

And so the romance begins...

This darkness.
It consumeth me like a venom.
Pulsing through my veins.
Slowly eating me up.
Like a fire inside of me,
I struggle to no avail.
It burneth me to ashes
Never to prevail.

I'm sorry Lord. I've been trying to rely on my own strength these few weeks.
Forgive me O Lord. Teach my heart. Help me.
Change my heart anew.
Make me more like you.
Help me to think before i talk.
Think before my actions.
Responsibility,
HardWork.

I have so much to ask from you,
Because I am just but a weakling,
A coward.

I come to you with nothing,
and yet you open your arms so widely.

All I ask now, is for your guidance.
Cause I truly am just a bastard on the inside.


Please dun give up on me. I beg you.

I'm sorry. But I just felt this was a good time. This, for me... would signify. The start of a new beginning.

Once again, I'm sorry you had to read the above post. It's me pouring my heart out. and also to someone else...

It's a
Messed up
Illusion of the
Sea.
Something
Yellow
Orientated
Under the
Sea.
Ordained to
Die a slow and painful
End.
Alas,
Risen is its
Love for
You.

.

.

Cant think of fresh strategies for my PI :(
Sian.

Act VI

The wanderer loiters in the shadows,
Getting closer to the gift.
Furious eyes watching him,
the hero grows suspicious.

Fade to black,
Watarimono

hm. I've deleted the archives function and watnots.
so people won see stuff i dun wan them to see.
cause by the 100th post, I'll probably open the blog to all (not that its alr open -.-)
as in I'll ask ppl read. Advertise. You get my drift.

Homework homework, what a bother. tsk.

hm

are

you

avoiding me?

or

am

I

over-thinking

things?