I had no idea that such great impact had been made.
I lied.
I didn't want anyone to know.
But not for reasons you thought.
Rather, I wanted to kill those feelings.

And I'm sorry.
I know it has been more than half a year already.
But I...

No. No more Is.

Its you.
Its us.

There were misunderstandings between us.
The day that you told us on the train,
I had haboured feelings before.

I felt obliged.
You were and are a good person.
I'd thought i got it in control.
I thought.

But winds blew in the opposite direction.
And things started to go,
downhill.

I am very thankful for 19th may.
Where everything just.
stopped.
Or, for me at least.
I only hope it was the same for you.

Once again,
I am truly sorry.

As this decade comes to a close.
Let's just post something for the sake of posting something. (:

Have a great 2010 ahead.

I MUST DO ALL THIS SHIT!

To do list:

- Wrap presents
- Cut out 40 articles
- Find something decent to wear tmr


Tomorrow:

- Finish up GP homework i.e. do write ups on all 40 articles under 12 hours.
- Pack 3 sets of clothing
- Christmas musical
- Supper... hopefully.


Friday-Sunday:

- Malaysia, for one heck of a time (:
- Be on the look out for more presents



Alright.
Let's do this.

Cambodia.

\m/

I've learned many things during my stay at cambodia.
Among the crappy few are as the following:

1) Sprinting all the way from the passport control counter to gate 37D at changi airport is no joke. Be warned, center puttings may take form while you do so. This, is not cool. At all.

2) NEVER underestimate the power of a comb or a brush. These are very powerful tools that will help remove all those holes in your fringes.

3) Creepy Touchy girls can be really... well, creepy. And I mean, REALLLYYY creepy.

4) Shooting stars are beautiful (:

5) A small pack of condoms only costs you 0.50 USD. Don't be lazy when you're naughty.

I'd love to share more, but unfortunately my brain aint working right now.

Back to more serious stuff. To say that these 14 days have changed my life would be exaggerate, but to say it has done little would be an understatement.


Concern.............................................Observation
...................Gossip<-/->Maturity.........................
....................................................................Courage
..............Nature........................................................
Gratefulness......Patience...........................
..............................................................Interacting
..................Communication....................................
Fear........................................ Slow to anger........




I hope that I really did mature as a person. At least, I think I did.
Although I'll still do "childish acts" for kicks,
Maturity is not measured by actions. But rather, REactions

But most of all,
What I've gained from this trip

BONDS

Indeed, I have forged deeper bonds with my friends during these 14 days.
Although occasionally I do still get the "what-the-heck-are-you-talking-about-?" feeling...
No wait, the "WHO-the-heck-are-you-talking-AND-GIGGLING-about-?" feeling.


lol.


Damn. I miss cambodia and my shy fan club too. All the what-the-heck-is-that-insects flying around, frogs invading the bathrooms, chilly nights, bargaining, leaking shampoo in my bag, crazy farewell party which i didnt really enjoy, pumping the clogged up ass-crap in the naturally "polaroid-ed" toilet bowls, supplying some plants with colgate water, making damn fine french toasts, reflections, motorcycle rides, carrying 20 litres of water for 1km in almost absolute darkness, staring at stars with my mouth wide open, sleeping under food coverings, etc.



To Cambodia:

It was one heck of 14 days eh?

I'd love to go back... someday...


Although I'd have to put thaton hold for awhile.



Here's to your national symbol... or whatever significance it holds!

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

Fig 3.2: ("Multiple Chins of Doom", Lim Si Cheng 2009)

Never getting what I want.
I dare not step ahead.

Joel...

You weak-willed boy.


(I'll be posting about Cambodia soon. Watch for it :D)